muses on life.

Ok, this isn't my work at all, but I'm copying this. My friend Ben wrote this this past semester (he goes to campbell), and I figured it was perfect to post before I write my next blog entry (which might have something to do with it. haha) Anyways, enjoy!!!

life is only enjoyable if you love it. Even when its hard. Love it. Enjoy all that you do and take chances. Life is driving up 8 floors of a parking deck just to look out at the ocean. Life is going to Harris Teeter and buying just a kiwi, a can of mandarin oranges, and sparkling grape juice and then going through the self check out just because you want a few laughs. Laugh. Laugh till you die. The shortest distance to someone else is laughter. Remember that. Make a joke. Even if its not funny. Laugh sincerely not mockingly. Love life. Life is not buying a spoon to eat the mandarin oranges and then making due with what you have...even if its a toothbrush...Life is jumping over trashcans...taking the chance it will fall. Life is getting away from the city lights and laying on the beach and figuring out astronomy. Life is hitting traffic cones...life is having the heat on and windows rolled down...life is twislers at 11 oclock...like if going into a Scotchman at 2am and simply buying fingernail clippers and meeting the cashier...life is making that cashiers night by talking with her...asking her how she is...laugh....life is being willing to go crazy, and simply not care, because if people look at you, they will either be smiling, or too cool to have a good time. Life is screaming "i feel like a woman" while driving in the car windows rolled down. life is making friends with those that you would never expect you'd be friends with. life is being random. Smiles. They cutest thing on any girl is there smile. It shows they know how to have a good time. Life is barefoot. life is not looking in the mirrors. Life is buying random people random food at mcdonalds...life is going to mcdonalds and ordering a cup of m&ms...life is experimenting with wisdom. life is knowing when something is needed. life is opening doors for the ladies. life is always working on being the better person. Life is being someone that people enjoy spending time with, simply because they never know what theyll get. life is fast. catch it. dont let it go bye you...a persons biggest fear should be that they fail to love their life. Smile. Make a joke. Stay strong. Dont let bad days put you in a mood. Shake it off and know that its not worth wasting precious moments of such a great life, on sadness. To feel new things you must be willing to try new things. Over excitement can only lead to a good time. show your emotions. begin to notice and wonder at the smallest and most wierdest things of Creation. Life is looking at a streetlight from the hood of your car and spending minutes wondering why the light seems brighter in one place than another....life isnt the denial of mistakes, but the promise that mistakes will teach you new and better things. Life is making petty bets with your buddies, life is buying flowers for any body thats had a bad day. life is not always making good decisions but enjoying the bad decisions also. Count your blessings. Always look on the brighter side, cause there always is...I promise. Life is written on cheap napkins, on tape, on skin...on anything that is available when great ideas come to mind...life is about loving it. Life is writing a long profile thingy just to convey to others who havent thought of it this way....life is amazing..... live it out. throw it down

Amarantine

Here's what i got from shuffling the songs and answering the questions with the titles.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OK?" YOU SAY...
Sail Away-Enya

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Hard Days Night-Beatles

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GIRL/GUY?
Your New Girlfriend-Hayden Panettiere

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Clocks-Coldplay

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
There's a Fine, Fine Line-Avenue Q soundtrack

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Sweet Thing-Keith Urban

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF VERY OFTEN?
I'd be Surprisingly Good For You-Evita Sountrack

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
There's Gotta Be More to Life-Stacie Orrico

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Holiday-Green Day

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Johnny and June-Heidi Newfield (favorite song!! AH!!! :P)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
My Jesus-Todd Agnew

WHAT SONG WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR WEDDING?
The Call-Regina Spektor

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
I Want it That Way-Backstreet Boys

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
100 Years-Five for Fighting

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Only Time-Enya

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
A Good Run of Bad Luck-Clint Black

A PERFECT DAY INCLUDES...
Fall into Me -Emerson Drive

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Promise of a Lifetime-Kutless

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Amarantine -Enya

Life's like an hourglass glued to the table

ok, the much awaited semester long post!!! haha

August: We moved onto Meredith's campus August 16th. The first week was a lot like summer camp. For my TCC friends, take CWIS and remove the bills and you have orientation for us. I met a lot of my friends at school that weekend. Maybe right here would be a good time to describe them. At the end of the hall, on my side of the dorm, is Kristie and Jelly (not her real name, but we can't pronounce it). Kristie's from Southport, and his 2 beautiful nieces. Jelly lives here, but is from mexico. Their suitemate's names are Ashley and Rachael. Rachael's dad is in the military, and for Christmas we all mailed him cards. Ash is our disney princess. :) Next to them is my suite, and my suitemate's are Logan and Mary Katheryn. Logan is a duke fan, MK is a Carolina fan....imagine how their room is. haha. Across the hall from Jelly and Kristie's room is Michelle and Meghan's room. Meghan is also a duke fan. Michelle is our other disney princess. :) Next to them is Ann and Emily....we don't talk to them much. Next to them is Malena and Jessie. THey're our soccer girls. Their suitemate is Naam. Naam is from Saudi-Arabia. She can be a Saudi princess someday. Down the hall is Mar. She's from Ethiopia. At the other end of the hall is Olivia-Paige Izze. And Izze is a model, who will one day be miss America. In the other dorms, there's tracey, she's an amazingly gorgeous girl. And Nora. Her dad's a hippie. :) And that's about most of my really good friends there.

After orientation was over, we started classes. Classes were...a pain, to put it mildly. I struggled at first, not with the classes as you might think, but with the differences in highschool. I realized that Meredith wasn't what I needed in a school. As odd as it is, I missed boys. Not because I'm boy crazy, but because the dynamics are SO different when you have guys around. There's a lot of girl drama, and I hate it. And there's a lot of other stuff. But ANYWAYS. I made it through the month. About this time was when I found out a friend of mine passed away from a swimming accident. That was really hard.

September: Nothing THAT big happened this month. I went camping with my roommate for labor day, which was awesome!! I had to drop 1 class. That was a bummer, but it's all good. I got to see a soccer game with Ally this month, that Malena and Jessie were playing in.

October: Ok. Another relatively dead month. classes were dragging on. I had midterms, which were all not too scary. I was starting to get the hang of school about this time. Softball ended for me, which was sad. I loved that. We went out for Halloween to Malena's Big Sis's house. October was also cornhusking month, so we had that going on. If you don't know what it is, you just have to experience it. hahaha. Um, I went to southport to see Kristie.


I'm going to cover November and december in another post. hahaha. :)

iPod shuffle

I know, I said a day, and it's been a week. But try covering a semesters worth of info...it's a lot. haha. So until then, a random ipod shuffle quiz

Step 1: Put your iPod on shuffle
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 20 songs that play no matter how embarrassing
Step 3: Bold over the songs that someone guesses correctly
Step 4: Looking up the lyrics on any search engine is totally cheating and that's not cool

1: A court is in session, a verdict is in
2: I’ve got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine
3: A hundred days have made me older since the last time that I saw your pretty face
4: Do you ever feel like breaking down, do you ever feel out of place?
5: Just a small town girl, living in a lonely world
6: I been thinking about our love situation, all this attraction in the present tense
7: I have fallen to my knees as I sing a lullaby of pain
8: 1,2,3 take my hand and come with me because you look so fine and I really wanna make you mine
9: So many crazy memories of you and me, like the time we drove to the OC
10: I probably shouldn’t say this, but at times I get so scared when I think about the previous relationship we shared
11: Everyone’s changing, I stay the same.
12: 525,600 minutes, 525,000 moments so dear
13: The mama pajama rolled out of bed and she ran to the police station
14: Been working so hard, I’m punching my card
15: Another day is going by, I’m thinking about you all the time
16: Lift up your head, wash off your mascara
17: Hear the sound of the fallen rain coming down like an Armageddon flame.
18: Sometimes I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear and I can’t help but ask myself how much I let the fear take the wheel and steer
19: Never know how much I love you, Never know how much I care
20: There’s a place off ocean avenue where I used to sit and talk with you

it's been way too long and I promise not to let this happen again....

Ok, ok. I know it's beeen WAYYYYYY too long since I've posted. And to be honest, I've really, really, really missed it. This is not going to happen again, I promise. I need to prioritize better than I have. I'll give a quick paragraph or two update on life, and then later tonight or tomorrow post a longer update about everything.

First semester is over. This has changed my life a lot....a ton. It's been a definite stretch for me living in a dorm. I love being away from home, but I miss a lot of the way it was in highschool. I miss my friends. For those of you I've known since high school, don't think I've forgotten about y'all. You are all still my best friends, and know me best. :)

Right now, I'm trying to make some pretty big decisions concerning college. I don't feel like Meredith is where I'm supposed to spend the next 3 years. I definitely was supposed to be there this year, but I'm not sure about later. If y'all could be praying that I will make the right decision, that will be great.

Like I said, I have TONS more to post (pics even if I can figure out how to post those....I've got a ton to upload to facebook), but I'll do that later! <3!

School

Well, it's 4 days until I move on campus. I can't believe how fast the summer has gone by!!! It feels like I just graduated, and now I'm going back to school. I'm starting to get a tad stressed out. I'm the type of person who, while I can handle a little untidiness, can't STAND it when everything is out of order....and right now, I have 3 suitcases around my room, and countless other things everywhere. It makes me soooo frustrated. And I'm frustrated with my advisor. I signed up to take a required freshman course, FYE. My advisor was supposed to look at our advising group schedules and schedule the class based off that. Well, he scheduled it 10 minutes after my softball class on thursdays. So not only am I not going to be able to shower after softball that day, I'm also going to have to run to get to class. Yuck.

I spent a week up in Richmond at the beginning of August. It was great to get to see some of my family, even though I only got to see Richard for dinner one night since he was at his gf Alison's house all week. I spent a lot of time with Mary Katherine, which is always a ton of fun. We made pillowcases for our beds, and they turned out really well!! I was surprised, since we were using her old pillowcase as a sort of pattern. I love mine! :) And we had fun looking at magazines that were almost entirely about the Jonas Brothers. I discovered Rita's Ice is one of Nick Jonas's favorite places (this goes back to another convo mk and I had).

While we were up there, we went to dan and barbara's for a few hours. Dan isn't doing great. He's lost about 45 pounds, and his eyes were sunken. Sitting there on their couch looking at him brought back so many fears for me. Cancer is way too hard. Another thing that I determined is that I want a love like dan and barbara have. I've always admired their relationship with each other, but I guess it never sunk in how amazingly sweet it is. Throughout the day (and this is and has been an everyday thing, so it's not just because dan's sick), he'd lean over and give barbara a kiss, and say things like "sweetie, you're beautiful." Dan and Barbara have been such amazing role models for me, and will continue to be. While I was coming home from their house, I was listening to one of my cousins reliant k cd's. When the song "For the Moments I Feel Faint" came on, I started crying...that was totally the song I needed to hear at the moment. http://search.playlist.com/tracks/for%20the%20moments%20I%20feel%20faint

I'm pretty excited about school now...I didn't think I would be, and like I said, it seems to early to be going back...but I'm excited. If any of y'all wanna hang out on the weekends, give me a call. I won't have a car, but if you can come pick me up, I definitely can hang out (or I might could borrow my dad's car). :)

random quiz

5 Facts
1. Middle name: Elizabeth
2. Astrological sign: don't even go there.
3. Eye color: Blue
4. Birth date (Monday, Tuesday...): this year it was on a Friday
5. Home state: North Carolina

5 Favorites
6. Fave movie: A Walk to Remember, Enchanted, or Newsies
7. Fave book: Impossible to chose. Right now I'm reading the Mitford series
8. Fave candy: Snickers, twix, or Milky Ways.
9. Fave makeup: Whatever I have
10. Fave magazine: Some magazine my cousin has

5 People
11. Newest friend: I dunno...
12. Childhood nemesis: Dylan
13. Longest-lasting crush: um...not answering that.
14. Role model: Jesus, Kristi Yamaguchi, Kimmie Meissner, Shawn Johnson.
15. Kindergarten teacher: mom

5 Things
16. My mantra is: "Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind."
17. I can’t find my: sunglasses
18. My friends say that I’m: I dunno...why don't y'all answer that?
19. My parents were going to name me: I think Abby or Sarah
20. I would never eat: Snake (unless I was starving)

5 Moments
21. I read my first book when: I guess I was four or five
22. The first time I lost a friend was when: I honestly don't remember. Friends when you are little come and go.
23. I had a really good laugh when: after I spazzed out over a certain famous persons favorite ice cream place. :)
24. I was so proud of myself when: I FINALLY figured out how to use the new phones at work!
25. If I could, I would go back to: whenever things were so much simpler.

5 Places
26. My first kiss happened (or should happen) at: Idk where at...definitely after I'm engaged, though. In my mind, kissing is a tad more sacred than people nowadays make it out to be.
27. I spend most of my time at: school
28. I used to hide my diary: between my mattress and the box springs (I think everyone does that)
29. My favorite place to unwind is: my room, starbucks, my grandmas.
30. I'd hate to live in: a huge city

5 Either/Ors
31. Morning or night: Night.
32. Cats or dogs: dogs
33. Computer or cell phone: both?
34. Pop or soda: soda…duh
35. Vegetables or fruit: fruit

5 Ifs
36. If I could move anywhere, it would be: Ireland or Montana
37. If I were an animal, I would be: A dolphin
38. If I could change one thing, it would be: Something that happened last year
39. If I had one superpower, it would be: Flying or being invisible
40. If I had a million dollars to spend, I would: shop, save a ton, pay for law school, and buy myself a car.

5 Pasts
41. My first word was: dada
42. When I played make-believe, I: went alllll out.
43. I used to watch, on continual repeat: barney (yes, I will confess)
44. I can’t believe I worried so much about: my future
45. I was so afraid of: heights

5 Futures
46. When I grow up, I want to be a: Lawyer, Rancher, Wife, and Mother
47. Before I die, I hope to: Either own a ranch or at least work on one
48. I'll be friends with: All my close friends now.
49. I'll live: Idk where, it's wherever God wants me. But I do want a lot of land.
50. I'll make a difference by: doing whatever God has for me.